Chapter 57

I just want to say sorry to my family especially my mom n dad.

SORRY FOR BEING SUCH A NAUGHTY GIRL!!

I've promised that I'll proved to you that I'm trusting the right guy and will never let you down for what we have done. But, I was wrong. I made a mistake. He changed right after our mistakes. Or maybe that is just him but I didn't realised. I have no one else other than my family. I love you so much mama and papa. I am really sorry. I want both of you to know, there's nothing else I need right now than both of you. Please let me finish my studies. I want to proved that he's making the biggest mistake in his life for letting me go and not being responsible for what had happened. I just think moving somewhere else is a great idea. I don't belong to be here, here is not where I have to be. Mama always said.. if we want to do good things, never think twice but if we want to do bad things, think of the consequences whether we are ready to go through it. I thought he already ready for all this and matured enough. Memang betul la lelaki lambat mature. Tu pasal still pikir nk enjoy 24hours. Kalau xder responsibility leh la nk enjoy je, nie nak lari2 lak. ENTAH LA!!! Allah tu sangat adil and tahu ape sebenarnye yang berlaku and apa ada dalam hati someone. People said "Let him go and if he come back for you, he's yours forever". I think and I can feel that he won't come back. Because he still didn't understand the meaning of love. Dulu dia ader ckp yg I senang sgt say 'sayang' but now I tau yg dia sebenarnye xtau maksud 'sayang' tu. Mama and papa, I'm really sorry. I know that mama always stalk my blog, fcebook and myspace for updates. I know you gonna read this, email to papa and print this in case papa didn't realise the email. Nothing else I want to say than I'm sorry!!! I'm really sorry for letting both of you hurt. For what had happen is not because both of you didn't take good care of me. It's just I've choose the wrong route.

BOTH OF YOU ARE THE GREATEST PARENTs IN THE WORLD!!

I'm totally blank right now, I just miss you mama.. I want us to talk and discuss like friends before. I'm sorry for making you cry, nothing hurts me more than seeing you cry.