Chapter 54

No words in this world that can describe how deep my love, how much i need, and how hard i want to have you. I never felt this before. You make my life different. You change me and I'm glad for having you. Last night, after meeting you. I know I'm loving the right guy. What do I have now also never be regretted. I thought I'm strong but I'm not. I have never been so weak of a guy.

When I stalk you facebook and myspace, I'm hurt. I know I'm not in you. You will always be in me. Seeing you changing status from married to single, make me hurt. Deleting all of our picture make me missed those moments. Not wanting to meet me anymore just make me cry. When you told me that you're in love with someone else. I just know, she's replacing my place. Maybe I didn't realised who she is that is why I'm totally heart broken right now. Why for the last 2month and a half he's really determined to have me. Although I said that I'm afraid of hurting you in future. But you gave me trust to myself until you change me. Totally change me. First time in my life I felt love, I meant true love until I'm blind of it. Until I'm willing to do whatever for you. You make me promised not to leave you and love you till death apart us. That's what I'm doing before until now. Since the first second you're mine, no other guy have took my heart even for a second. Till now, I'm not letting that to happen.

Chapter 53

I love you,
Yes i do.
Ill be with you aslong as you want me to,
Until the end of time.
From the day i met you i knew we'd be together.
And now i know i want to be with you forever, i want to marry you and i want to have
your kids.
Thinking can never compare to the feeling of your kisses.

I can say im truely happy till this day.
You make me thank god that i live my life every day.
Theres never been a doubt in my mind that id regret ever having you by my side.
But if the day comes that i have to let you go
I think theres something i should probably let you know,
Enjoyed everday that i spent with you and i will miss you cause im happy that i had
you at all.

Baby I love you and i'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we make can never be erased
And i promise you that you will never be replaced

I feel for you yes i do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
Until the end of time

What you think I would say at this time?

when I face it that you dont love me no more

do you think i will curve you or say things to hurt you

cause you just don't love me no more

did you think i will hurt or hate you?

come on, you know me too well

and how could i hurt you darling i love you

and you know i could never want to hurt you

i do fall on my knees, kiss the ground you walk on

if that can make me hold you, if i could hold you back

let me hold you, and don't let me free

i'm gonna miss you, really miss you

can you see my tears for missing you

i'm down, i'm down on my knees,

what do you think i should do?

did you think i will let you go?

Chapter 52.

Why we go through this??

This is so hard to say, but I have to let go
what has been on my mind when you left me alone
It is not that I do not love you, because you know I do
but something has changed between me and you
We argue, we fight, we yell a lot more
and I just want to know What is the cause of our war
I do not want to loose you and I do not want to break up
but the fighting and yelling is just too much
Your love has kept me from breaking down
but us fighting is making it worse
I wish we could get back to the way it was
before the arguing and before the war
I want you to understand that I do not want it to be over
but the fighting we are doing has got to stop
So I am asking you please to think what could have happened
with all our love and all our trust
We need to find the answer before it is to late
Before our love is gone and our hearts break
So please help me find the reason for our fights and the reason
for our war
So we can find a solution before it is to late
I love you to death, but I just can not take the way we are now
compare to how it was back then
So until our love in back too usual
It may be best to back away some and take baby steps
Just think about what I am saying, and try to figure out
where we went wrong, and how to fix it now

~ this is for naqib esa. I do really love you and no one could compare you.

Chapter 52

EVERYTHING OVER!!!!

today its over,

next day without you,

twenty four hour thinking

are we really have through,

you said that you love me

i'll always trust it's true

yet, i still laying and cry

because i miss you,

how could our love,

bring me to tears,

i honour our time together,

priceless and no dollar could pay us

heart so fragile, when it comes on you,

I stare at the abyss, needing to sleep,

rose are red, colour of my heart begs to bleed

Harden by your loss, I forbid to submit.

doubt, secrets and questionable behavior destroy

nothing could save as me and you

Questions left abundance, answers is not heard,

made undecided, forcing to say goodbye.

you are my ghost haunting me everytime

Wondering could everything last?

it scars your heart and soul…i'm sorry

No explanations needed… that is what I was told.

just now we were lovers, now we were friends

before we were in love,

but i will always wait

I love you with all my heart! please forgive me for everything had happened.

I am sorry!

Nothing else I could say, it seems nothing could change

once again, i love you and no one have encounter your place since the time i started to love you.

Chapter 51

*9th December 2009*

mya + kipp + syaza + banie + shaz + rijal + FATEN =

Faten's Birthday Dinner!!

We had a surprised for Faten last night right at 12am. So tonight dinner was not suspected from her. We are going for dinner at Alamanda as usual. So we went to Pizza Hut because everyone was craving for pizza.But before that Faten and Shaz already inside Alamanda to buy few things then the others went to pizza hut to prepare for the surprise.

Once Faten steps into Pizza Hut, a white box appe

ar in front of her. She was totally surprised. When she

opened the box.

This is what she found.....SWEET KAN!!!

Then all of us pun pay dinner for her. Dia memang xsangka langsung because last night we've told her that we were totally broke unless of buying just a slice of cake for her. Tibe-tibe je dua kali celebrate birthday Faten.

On our way back to MMU, Faten whispered to all of us saying

"Thanks Myra", "Thanks Shaz", "Thanks Syaza", "Thanks Banie"...

We all love Faten so much..

Oooppsss, including that two Uniten boy ( KIPP + RIJAL )..

korang pun best la!!

Chapter 50

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FATEN!!!!!!

mya + syaza + shaz + banie + kipp = HB3 4015 *MMU Cyberjaya*

We went to Alamanda putrajaya to meet my mom there. Then we were having our dinner at McD Alamanda. We took away because we wanted to celebrate Faten's birthday. While waiting for the clock tick to 12am, we study as usual. Konon-kononnye buat bodo jela. We went to Secret Recipe Cyberjaya. We told Faten taht we just bought a slice of cake and celebrate together inside my car. Kteorg pun dengan suara sedihnyer cakap yang kteorg pokai and xder duit nak celebrate birthday Faten. Just this slice yang kteorg mampu. Kteorg pun makan la ramai-ramai.

Just imagine, a slice of cake being shared by 5 people ( birthday cake ke camtu )???

About 11.57pm, Faten went to toilet then masa tu la bermula nyer kerja kteorg. We switch off the light and light up the cake using ezry's lighter. *THANKS EZRY FOR THE LIGHTER ( sanggup gy amek lighter for faten )*.

When she step into my room all of us sang happy birthday song. Banie and Kipp pulak wish through webbie.

So sweet la kawan-kawan I nie sume. Korang memang adorable!!!

That was the end of this chapter. The best part, I love my friends. They really do appreciate our friendship.

You all are the best chapter that had happen to me. I hope it won't last!

xoxoxo

-myra mokhtar-

*MY OWN PAVILION*

BELIEVE IT OR NOT???

PAVILION IS MINE.. TGK LA SEMUA KEDAI DA TUTUP BUT I'M STILL THERE!!! hahahaha

Chapter 49

*4th December 2009*

mya + syaza + shaz + faten + banie

+ kak nadia = PAVILION KL

We were too bored in MMU. So we decided to go Pavilion to shop. Banie was the one who wanted to shop actually. He wants to but Topman shoe ( the grey col

our ). Then he realised that to much people having the shoe already.

BANIE : Go and buy shoe at Pedro. Metro sikit! nampak

mahal..btw, tgh year end sale kn!!

Dalam mood nak teman Banie shopping, at last I and Faten yang membeli belah. Kteorg memang pantang jejak kaki kat mall, mesti je keluar duit. We bought a ballet flat at Cotton On together. 2 pcs for Rm60. I nak beli gladiator dekat cotton on for rm99 but bile pikirkan balik. better I beli my favourite brand that is Nine West or Charles and Keith

for that price. So I pun tak beli la!!!After shopping until kene halau dekat Pull and Bear for too teruja nk shopping we moved to GSC for movie.

Shaz and Faten wanted to watch NEW MOON but I've watched it on t

he 1st day it shown so I, Banie, Syaza, n Kak Nadia watched NINJA ASSASIN.

AWESOME!!! LAGI BERBALOI TGH NINJA ASSASIN THEN

NEW MOON!!

Right after that we wanted to go back to MMU but we stopped at the side of Pavilion because they were having FIFA CEREMONY 2010. So ramai la mamat handsome kat sana. best gak la cuci mata.hehehehhee!!! Crowd were superdly cool especially when a group of dancer starts dancing on the ground, they started to join the group together. As time goe

s, makin ramai yang join termasuk la mamat2 Arab with jubah dorg.

Best la!!!

Tak sangka Malaysian that sporting. Since I moved back here, that night it really changed my mind about malaysian. The new generation of Malaysian are sporting and more open minded than before. They learned to go with the flow.Now I started to love Malaysian more.

MALAYSIAN ROCK!!!

Chapter 48

*3rd December 2009*

I bought a shoe with a very minimal cost.

Could you imagine of buying a RM15 shoe???

damn cheap and quite adorable. So I just grab one since the size fits me. I bought it through online shop all this kind thingy.

The next day I thought of wearing it to class. I bought it to class because I love to wear pump shoes to class due to its comfort. Just by a few steps to class, the shoe has splits to two. So I have to walk back to room by holding the shoe. ahahhahahah!!!! cute gak la....

UNTIL NOW, I still didnt take the shoe to cobbler yet. Maybe later la...heheheheh

Chapter 47

*2nd December 2009*

mya + kipp + minor ( mik )

I'm studying in my room alone for physic midterm paper tomorrow. Then I had another fight with Kipp.

Gaduh gaduh gaduh n gaduh!!

That's all we can do..maybe thats what we are good at

I da penat nak gaduh but still gaduh, I can just ignore my feeling when I heard him calling his ex name while sleeping. This happend when I called him through his handphone last two nights at about 4.30am and I realised that he's sleep talking (mengigau). So I took the chance to make myself bloom la at first by asking a few question and it turns to nightmare when all the question being answered diffrently than what I thought and the best part is my name not being said even once. While nama orang lain yang dok keluar. SABAR JELA !! mls nk gaduh so buat bodoh jela..

But tonight it turns to a big issue when Mik sent me to clinic but not him. Dia terasa la pulak. I call nak mintak tolong hantar tp he's lepaking with his friend so I mls la nak kacau. I pun say ok la xpela. Then i kne mara coz Mik sent me to clinic. Entah la!!!Xpaham.....

Chapter 46

ALL I HAVE IS YOU

What happened to our love?
It used to be so bright
Loving, laughing, caring
Then soon caught the night
I just love you so much
I'm scared to lose you
I hate the way you treated me
I hate what you did to me
When I want to cry on, your shoulder isn't there
When you weren't there the time I passed slows
I loved you more than anything
I loved that you thought the same thing
You made me feel like I was in heaven
You now have me seeking a safe haven
Everything I have
Is because of you
Everything I bought
Was because of you
Love sprouting sadness shrinking
Hope has come again.

* Hope our love will last forever!!

Chapter 45

25th November 2009

mya + kipp

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He's hurting me so much!

I cant understand all this. I and Kipp had a fight tonight because I feel like the ones that not important for him since he put his friends on the top place rather than me. I'm wondering why am I his gf while I didn't get any priority than the others. Anything happen, his friend will always be on top while I'll be at the bottom. I'm always losing from his friends. Things that make me really down that he's not willing to hurt his friends' feelings while he always hurt mine.

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WHY IS MY FEELING IS THE ONE ALWAYS BE HURT?

CAN'T HE CONSIDER NOT TO HURT MINE TOO??

WHY AM I THE ONE THAT WILL ALWAYS CRY FOR THIS??

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I have no idea how long will I be able to pretend and lying to myself that I'm gonna be OK with all this.. Now, I'm letting the time to do all the judgement.

Chapter 44

22nd November 2009
mya + friends + family = KLCC

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I went for second trip of shopping to KLCC since ISETAN are having sales. My pocket are so so so so thin until I couldn't go for shopping anymore elsewhere.

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When I'm broke but I still need my spa ( my spa is shopping - the best stress treatment ever ), I will go for shopping at ISETAN or PARKSON or METROJAYA! or Sg Wang!

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But I find it quite OK to shopped there when I found so many cheap thingy. At first I'm there with my cliques but at the evening my family were there to join the shopping. My mom bought Jane Holli handbags for RM 399 for 50%. And I memang la tersangat la pokai when my papa is there, I terpaksa la pau papa dengan alasan nak beli baju for classes. So I bought a few cheap blouse and t-shirt for classes.

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At the end of the day,Im totally broke!!!

So no more shopping... =)

Chapter 43

21st November 2009

mya + mik + mya's relatives + joe ( mik's brother ) = Pavilion, Bukit Bintang shopping

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BEST!!!!

When all of us share our passion on shopping and have the blast together. We really missed those time before when we have so many time to hangout together but now everyone were to busy with our own chores.

sorry no pictures since my handphone camera is not functional already!!

This year end sales really drives me crazy, I shopped until the last cent I have in my pocket. But I'm so happy with what I've bought with a good price and material.

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dress + blouse + clinche = RM70 *Bukit Bintang

blouse = RM 259 from RM 519 * Ted Baker

biker's jacket = RM 149 or RM129 ^can't remember * Pull and Bear

monkey shirt = RM 470 rounding off ^6 pcs for all of my family member * Paul Frank

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The Paul Frank's shirt I bought it for every of my family member since we love to wear something looks alike together. Paul Frank were having a promotion of buying a shirt with extra discount on the other one. Those t-shirts are my best find out item on the day.

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LET'S GO SHOPPING DURING THIS YEAR END SALES!!!

Chapter 42

Im so so so sorry Afiq for making you feel ashamed with what I've written on my blog. This blog are my chapter of life which not to make anyone feel terrible about it.

IM SORRY!!!

sorryy!!!

YOU ARE REJECTED!!!!

I hope you know who am I talking about... SORRY YOU ARE TOOOOOOOOOOOOO LATE!!!!

Chapter 41

*12th November 2009*

mya + afiq = FLASHBACKS!

Right after the fight with Kipp, I had a talk on phone with Afiq. Afiq was my pass since last year. This coming 4th December 2009 should be our 1st year anniversary of couple IF we were still together. Last night call, makes me wondering how much he loves me even after 7months we broke up and he said to me about his love with me.

You're so sweet and makes me felt horrible for hurting you so much before!

Afiq, I memang pernah sayang you!! I mengaku that I memang mintak you untuk mengaku dekat I yang you still sayang I. After we broke up, your ego yang menggunung tu buat I rase yang you sayang I tapi you just tak nak mengaku.

MAY I KNOW WHY?????

You know how much I love you before but why it has to be now for you to come back and say that you still love me. Kenapa tak dulu lagi, I waited for it so long. You ingat tak, time I try to pujuk you and you said I'm such a b***h and you asked me not to come back. I ikut cakap you, I xpenah kacau and Im trying to enjoy my life with the way that I could forget you....

KNP YOU DATANG BALIK ER????????????????????? entah la...

THANKS FOR STILL BEING FRIEND WITH ME!!! I'M HAPPY THAT WE ARE STILL FRIENDS LIKE WE ARE BEFORE KITA COUPLE!!!

if you read this ( I know you'll read since you know evrythings about me, I'm sorry for hurting you before. I mengaku I played on your back but maybe time tu kecik lagi kot...SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!)

Chapter 40

*12th november 2009*

mya + kipp = McD Seri Kembangan

Kipp and I had a fight on the night for a misunderstanding matter. I admit it was my fault for doing this towards him. I didn't thought he could know about this.Please understand my situation because I have my reasons why those things happened.

If you read this Naqib Esa : From the bottom of my heart, I am really sorry!!!! It won't happened again...I can assure that.

Chapter 39

*6th November 2009 - 8th November 2009*

mya + papa + mama + nana + boy + adeq = my beloved family

No words could describe how wonderful the beaches are and how mad I am when I'm on those beaches. These beaches and the white sands with clear water make me gone mad.

Everytime the boat stopped fo fish feeding or anything, even at the middle of the sea...i will always be at the water. Always wet!!!

From these few picture, it explains how happy I am there.

I am just beach addicts!!!

KRABI

Krabi....

HERE I COME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wanna stay there for the beaches and gorgeous hunks

Chapter 38

*5th November 2009*

mya + aziee + shaz + faten + ezry + benu + zulhilmi + faris + micah + ikki + afnan = Thursday gang

Supposely, the girls gonna have a bowling tournament with the guys at Midvalley but last minutes the guys cancelled the bowling thingy. So we walked around Midvalley and window shopping then went for bowling. The players were mya, aziee, shaz and faten ONLY!!!!

Guess who's the winner... MYA!!!!!

Tengok la brape kali STRIKE in a row!!!

Right after the game we moved to Andalus at Jalan Ampang for shisha. There is the place where we met those guys. We lepaking there like our own house. Everything was all over, berserepah sekali.

Habis je shisha those guys ajak the girls for COD at V2 ( Wangsa Maju ). We got there for late dinner first because we were starving but the guys tooooo obssesed with games until they just go for the games. When we're done with our food, we joined them for the game. Entah pape la jadi. Ader nama players faraise, benu hot, aziee hot, jgn buli ikki n mcm2 lg la.

It was a great night. The next morning I'm moving to Krabi.

GILA LA MENGANTOK.

Chapter 37 *jatuh tangga*

*2nd November 2009*

mya

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I have computer application and physic class starts from 2.oopm - 6.00pm. Right after class mya + shaz + aten + aziee went to HB1 for early dinner at 6.00pm because we were extreamly hungry since we didn't have our lunch and breakfast of the day. On our way to HB1 I ter slipped from one of the stairs steps. Lalu tergolek-golek dan jatuh la saya kebawah.

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SAKIT GILA GILA SAKIT!!! tak terbayang la sakit dia

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My back bone felt like cracking and really hurts me. Tp lapar punya pasal, plan for dinner is on cz if not memang kebulur la saya kan. After dinner, we moved back to room and on that time it hurts badly. Balik je bilik, tengok dekat back bone i da merah and cm lebam.

Aaaarrrgggghh!!!!!!!!! nak baring pun cam seksa, nak gerak pun sakit.

I have no idea why last week I had high fever which was really really high temperature while this week I jatuh tangga and digelak kan oleh faritz fit.. ngek ngok nyer faritz!! Da la this week it starts with sooo damn banyak benda ngok terjadi.

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Just praying for better upcoming days!!

Chapter 36 *ALL AMERICAN REJECTS*

*1st November 2009*

ALL AMERICAN REJECTS

I and Aziee went to the concert with Kipp and Rijal while the other Uniten's cliques we'll met them there. We were quite late, so Kipp has to parked his car between cars. Then we had one of the bad concert of the 2009. All american rejects was a great band that perform at MTV World Stage but on that night it was horrible, disaster and teribble. It just a night that we could not imagine.

Right after the show, we walked to Kipp's car and his car window was broke down by the one who suck and stupid!!!

KESIAN LA KIPP!!!!!!!

Tu jela yang I leh cakap. Hope Kipp is strong to control your anger. I know that you love your car so much but pls dont hurt yourself.

To those that tak der keje nak pecah kan tingkap kereta org tu, hope korg terima la balasan nyer!

Chapter 35 * JENNIFER'S BODY*

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*30th October 2009*

mya + aziee + syaza + shaz + faten + kipp + rijal + banie

= GSC, Pavilion

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All of us went to GSC Pavillion for movie. The movie starts at 11.00pm so before that we had our dinner at Kampung Baru. One of the worst and horrible dinner we had. Then we make a move to Pavilion for the movie. The title sound great, but the movie is not that great pun. Sedih jugak la!!! Tu jela yang boleh diperkatakan.

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Out of five stars I only can give 2 stars!!

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THE END

Chapter 34 *fever*

*28th October 2009*

mya

I had high fever since on last monday. But until now, I still didn't recover. Sedih tau. So my roommate, Syaza took care of me. Thanks babe!!! including Banie yg msn ngn syaza with 'mute' just tak nak kacau I.

You all are just great!!!

Hopefully, I'll recover soon!!!!

Chapter 33 ( Euphoria )

*22nd October 2009*

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mya + aziee + benu + adrin + ezry + mikah + faris + acap + rizal = MOS, sunway

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faiq + 2 mmu melaka guy + uniten guy = faiq's cliques

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I already planned to go to euphoria with Faiq a few days before but suddenly, I have so many things to be done which turn me down to euphoria that night. Plus Aziee whose's not going. Lagi lagi lagi la xder mood. Then I thought of changing plan for shisha at Andalus but everyone just not feeling like going out that night. So the planned turn up side down again. Then I decided to sleep. Then out of sudden, Aziee screamed asking me to wake up and told me she's going to euphoria with me.

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I sayang gle kt u!!!

I just know you won't leave me alone, right??? hehehe

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And he told me we're going with FCM guys.

( gle la segan!! because I've never talk or even know them before,OK la - new friends )

Thankful to them because teman kn kteorg. At least ader bodyguard.. n they are nice guys!! =)

they were aziee's n myra's protector for the night!!

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Before we get into MOS, kenyang kn perut dulu la. THEN...

IT'S TIME TO ENJOY!!!!

tp it will be great if bf i yg tercinta ikut sekali. i will always remember you dear!!

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Right after enjoying ourselves, we moved back to MMU. Before that we went to Js Maju for a drink. Tu pun I, Aziee, Ezry, Adrin and acap je. The others da nk balik and tido!!!

I pun da ngantok sesangat tu la pasal drive cam org gile,

nk kejar kan katil!!!!

Once balik je bilik... APE LAGI, TERUS DIVING ATAS KATIL LA!!! sampai malas nak gy class the next day!!

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The End

Chapter 32 ( Papadom )

*15th October 2009*

mya + syaza + shaz + faten + banie = Alamanda

That day, our class supposely finished at 6.00pm but the tutorial class starts on the 2nd week. So our lecture class ended at 2.00pm and we were jobless since Aziee ( the one with car this week ) have to rushed back to Gombak her aunty's house for funeral ceremony.

So we decided to go to Alamanda by bus..hehehe. 1st time on bus since I left school years. Lagi2 kt Cyberjaya and Putrajaya, absolutely xpenah la kn. Quite excited with it!!!huhu

We watched PAPADOM!!! Interesting story line. I just not so into Liyana Jasmay but the story is great.

It makes me thinking of my dad.

Suddenly I miss him and felt like going home that night. I gave 4 1/2 stars out of 5 stars.

Then we took bus to MMU again. While exchanging bus at Putrajaya Sentral, Aziee called me and invited me to meet Kipp and Rijal. So Aziee picked me up there and took them to JS Maju. That day, I had a fight with Kipp and the worst of it. He didn't come for me. I'm so frust and thousands came across my mind about his action. Then everthing settle down and I know the reasons of his action. And okay la!!!

That's all I could say.

Chapter 31 *slimming spirit*

*12th October 2009*

mya + aziee + shaz + faten + syaza = Cyberia

Aziee proposed all of us to slim down bacause honestly we should put out some weight except foR faten bacause she's absolutely slim enough. So she came out with this one plan of going for swimming every monday and tuesday while the other days will be jogging day.

We'll see how long this plan would last.

So we went to Cyberia for swimming without dinner and we gonna have a balance dinner since the day.

Once we finished swimming, we went to Mak Teh for dinner. We have the worst dinner ever. Mak Teh was the best spot for us to dine in but suddenly that night Mak Teh's food was a disaster.

No one satisfied with the foods.

This time around was Shaz's idea to have dinner at Mak Teh since Banie also have no deep interest at Mak Teh anymore

Then with the spirit of slimming down turned up side down when Banie recomended us for KFC. We went to KFC and I want ice cream at McD ( the others joined my invitation too ). That night was super duper WHATEVER when our slimming program doesn't worked out.

And we have our KFC at HB3 ( girls hostel ) parking lot. Just beside my beloved baby, that's my car!!!hehehe..jgn mara.

BUT, WHATEVER IT IS WE STILL ENJOY THE NIGHT WITH ALL OF MY FRIENDS!!!!

they are my true friend

Chapter 30

*10th October 2009*

mya + kipp + aziee + rijal = Sky Bar Traders Hotel, the Apartment Curve, Rasta TTDI

Tonight supposely to be Rijal's night because aziee , kipp and mya planned a surprised birthday celebration for Rijal. But I it turned to be my and Rijal's night when kipp did somthing sweet to me. hehehe.

I miss you babe!!

We went to Traders Hotel KL, Sky Bar at first but unfortunately the place were packed with people. We have to wait for seats and Kipp started to make faces because for him the place is too noisy and pack. That night I'm wondering why without purpose he wanted a peaceful place to hangout while before he'll be the one whose smiling to that kind of place. So we moved to Laundry, the curve since the night were still young. Once we were there, Aziee said she wanted to go to the apartment where we can talked and relaxing.

I and Kipp went to Pavilion before to buy my dress and Rijal's birthday cake. So we make a surprised to him with the cake and we bought Esprit watch for him ( aziee + kipp + ashriq + mya ). He was extreamly shocked when he saw the watch.

Then Kipp were so brave and being so sweet towards me. hehehe. I love it but Aziee and Rijal said that we were to serious about it.

Thanks Kipp!!!

mmmuuuah

Then we went to Rasta for late night dinner and shisha.

We just love Rasta so damn fucking much.
And there it change my life.huhu =)

now I gf orang, so no one should came across the line. For the first time public viewers, I'm belong to Kipp Esa!! I love you damn crazy freaking fucking deadly love you...

Thats all from me for this chapter. I da xtau nk merapu ape benda. tu jela!!!

BYE

Chapter 29

*7th October 2009*

mya + rijal + kipp = myspace status

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Now I have no idea why im smiling non stop. it happened all because of rijal si kecik tu. Rijal starts everything. I have no idea who's the masterplan, whether rijal himself or kipp. He sent a status of a song from secondhand serenade. He dedicate the song for me and kipp. He made me wondering what's going on actually. I just can't write everything now, because honestly my hands are shaking. I have no idea what's going on with me once I know him better day by day.

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You make my heart blooms dear!!

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RijαlIt's Not Over-Second hand Serenade,dedicated to Kipp,Mira
Mood:chill Posted 50 minutes ago
m y a xyah buat drama leh kn??
m y a xphm la korg nie??
kipp bodoh la kau.rijal babiiiiii -.-
m y a asl lak kipp nangis?
kipp jgn layan rijal ni -.-
Rijαl kipp nangis =.='
m y a asl lak mira??

m y ais it over??
Mood:blank
m y a do what??
Rijαl do it for me,NOW
m y a ok.i love azieerijalkipp so much. thanks for being a great friends!!
Rijαl arghh,nama i belakang
m y a syg azieekipprijal gak
Rijαl syg korg :)
m y a i n kipp biase jela. xder yg beza ok???jgn la risau sgt
m y a OK la!!!
Rijαl mira,its not over.ITS NOT OVER
m y a whatever la kipp
kipp its not over yet :)
m y a ok!!

kipp i wish i could drive away to the sunset
Mood:-
m y a hahhaha. mengarut jela!
Rijαl nnt aku ngn azie buat sunset tu kt korg,kt SK
m y a kipp pun ngek ngok. mane la ader sunset kt uniten n cyber 2..
kipp yeah.thats very true rijal pendek
m y a ngek ngok la rijal!!
Rijαl melamar kau lah Mira
m y a what r u going to do at sunset??

kipp i'll come back for more
Mood:-
m y a DA LA!!! rijal n kipp stop doing this
Rijαl do it for me,NOW
kipp for u :)
m y a for more girls??

kipp you steal my heart and curse under your breath
Mood:-
m y a if its me. im sorry for making ur life miserable than before

RijαlThat's My Goal-Shayne Ward,Kipp Mira,feel lagu ni
Mood:chill

kipp i wish you could put your ear up to my heart and hear how much I love you
Mood:-
Rijαl i havn't heard a sound

Rijαlwow,MIRA YOU NAMPAK X AYAT KIPP TUH
Mood:chill
m y a asl ngn u n kipp mlm nie???
m y a npk

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I WROTE THIS BLOG SO THAT I WILL ALWAYS CAN READ THOSE SWEET THINGS IF ANYTHING BAD HAPPENS.

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He's a nice guy which no one could resist.

No girls could afford to resist him once she knew him.

Physically, he's just a normal guy like the one you could see out there. He do what other norm guys did but deep inside him he's an interesting guy to know. The more I try to apart from him, the nearer i got to. I'm afraid of hurting another innocence and a truly in love guy as I hurts a few before. I have no idea if I will hurt him too. If that things happen, I will never forgive myself for losing another trust of a guy. Deeply inside my heart I know that I love him. But I don't know how long this feeling could stay. This is the biggest question mark inside me. I hope you know why i (myself) doubt of my own feelings.

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I LOVE YOU!!

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for once, i cried when i wrote this blog for a guy that's not mine!!

Chapter 28 *final exam*

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This is my final exam week. It keep haunting me since last week, and finally here it comes.. Gle la.. I have no idea at all about what am I going to write on those exam paper.

So Im a little bit busy..

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STUDY

STUDY

STUDY

STUDY

Konon nyer la!!!hahahha

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During this busy week, I have no idea why suddenly I missed him so much. The feeling comes without invitation. It makes me wondering why I still missed him although he hurts me. But infacts, I hurt him more than he hurts me.

Im sorry afiq!!

I just can say sorry, if it's because of me you stop believing in girls

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Eventhough I lied to you, I have never thought of cheating on you.

Although I hurt you, I just dont want to hurt you.

Sorry when I cried, shout, and just hang over the phone on you. I just didnt mean to do it to you.

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Im sorry when you need me, Im not there for you.

(I always want to be there with you but whenever I want to be there, there will always have someone else with you)

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I just jealous and felt unsecured when you gave priority to your friends than me. So I spend more time with my friends but you're not comfortable with that.

Sorry because I never listen on you.

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For all the moment we spent together before, I realised that we just not meant to be together because I will not get your trust on me forever. I hope you understand why I lie on you. I just felt like Im losing from your arms. The more I tried to close with you, the more circumstances. Thanks afiq!!! I wish you the best in life, and good luck with your studies. I hope you can trust me for the last time that, when Im with you after months, and I said nothing going on between me and Nash I meant it. But, I'm sorry for lying on you on the day we couple about me and him.

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I have no idea why I did this. I just missed the moment we spent, although it's not much!!