25th November 2009
mya + kipp
He's hurting me so much!
I cant understand all this. I and Kipp had a fight tonight because I feel like the ones that not important for him since he put his friends on the top place rather than me. I'm wondering why am I his gf while I didn't get any priority than the others. Anything happen, his friend will always be on top while I'll be at the bottom. I'm always losing from his friends. Things that make me really down that he's not willing to hurt his friends' feelings while he always hurt mine.
WHY IS MY FEELING IS THE ONE ALWAYS BE HURT?
CAN'T HE CONSIDER NOT TO HURT MINE TOO??
WHY AM I THE ONE THAT WILL ALWAYS CRY FOR THIS??
I have no idea how long will I be able to pretend and lying to myself that I'm gonna be OK with all this.. Now, I'm letting the time to do all the judgement.