Chapter 122

Bila nak raya ape lagi yang boleh I tulis kt blog selain keje memperabihkan duit. Tu jela keje yang I'm really good at, and I bet every girls good at it too. Today as early as 6am right after sahur, me and my family preparing to bake bahulu. Ni memang keja gila! Actually it was planned by my dad, dia teringin sangat nak buat bahulu. So we all menyemak skali la.!! BTW, berbakat sunguh papa in baking. Lepas nie all of Hong Leong Bank workers can order bahulu kt papa while Uncle Shamsul yang secretary papa akan ambil semua order.hikhikhik... Just Joking!! Tapi papa memang pandai memasak.

Right after that, we went to KLCC. I bought a new Nine West clutch and a Jane Holli handbag. This two handbag je cost more than 1K. Gila ke ape. Tapi cantik la, so can be consider with that amount. I thought bru nk beli coach wristlet baru..Ehhhmmm, next time myra!! Then I bought eyeliner ar Shesheido and their new released lipstick. Best la, cz it really stay on lips for sometimes. Then I thought of buying shoes, but unfortunately their shoes looks really mak cik mak cik. Only suits for my mom's age. Can you imagine, Guess, Nine West, Aldo everything entah ape2 je. Then we went to Jimmu Choo, mama nak belanja this one suede black with glitters oxford style heel but can you imagine it cost 1K++. So I yang tetiba bermurah ati, cakap kat mama xpela. I dont feel like wearing this expensive shoes because now I da jarang pakai heels. Nampak tinggi sangat with heels since my natural height is already 158cm.

Then we drop by at Karyaneka because I nak cari cucuk sanggul. Finally I found one, cantik gila!! Xdela nampak cm nk kahwin tp really look typical malay kampung girl. Just cost me Rm 40. Thne I thought nk beli three tier necklace, but design da nak habis. So, aunty lin cakap nanti datang la boutique dia kat KJ and coming soon in Curve because what I want ada kt boutique je. So nanti I akan bawa my Afiq there because I nak belikan butang baju melayu. I want him to look gorgeous in baju melayu. baru la budka melayu sikit!!! No matter what I'm proud to say that I'm 100% malay and no matter how sucks my malay is or how terrible my attitude as a malay girl, I love our culture heritage and tradition.

So i jela yang I telah berbelanja untuk hari ini, thanks papa and mama for everything. Both of you really rock my life out. I sentiasa bersyukur kerana dapat apa yang I nak selagi my parents mampu untuk belikan. I can never thanks them for how understanding they are on my needs. I tau kadang2 xsemua org at the age of 19 dapat pakai those brand new handbags cost you rm1K and etc. I'm glad atas rezeki yang Allah berikan, hopefully tahun ini my family akan merayakan Aidilfitri dengan lebih bermakna dan lebih jimat. Selepas balik dari Event Secangkir Kasih last saturday it really widen my eyes how lucky I'm to have this life. Although it is now luxuries but I still can breath, eat, wear, use, have and able to get things that I wanted even a family. My family is everything, when I saw their faces with no siblings, parents, and life depending on a single fan sharing with numbers of kids makes me realise that how could it be if I'm in their shoes. Could I survive with this kind of life I'm having right now???

Amin kerana I antara yang dapat makan dan hidup dengan selesa berbanding mereka yang lain. Alhamdullilah

I am totally ready and can't wait for this year Hari Raya. I da ada 3 kebaya pendek which 2 kebaya nyonya and 1 is kebaya lace. 1 kebaya panjang, 2 baju kurung and 1 jubah from hajaba. Ehm, xsedar I already have 7 baju to wear just on raya. While my college only have 3days raya holiday, On the 4th day of raya I have to come back to college. So entah bila la nk pakai tu semua. Everything comes bila ambil kt tailor yesterday, tgk2 da ada 5 baju and tonight keluar dengan papa, papa bought for me another two kebaya. Tu pun papa nak belikan kurung lagi kt Great Eastern boutique kt concourse. Looks nice and expensive tp npk over pulak cz I'm not going to any special occasion pun. So mls nk beli. Then, now I just haven't buy my handbag, clutch, and shoes for raya. Earring, and rantai raya da beli but suddenly I teringin nak jadi a very traditional girl on this raya with cucuk sanggul, dokoh and everything. I want everything to look old, It's not that I want to look old but I want it to look antique. Nowadays teenagers doesn't appreciate antiques while antiques cost you double and sometimes triple than the new one. So I found out what I'm looking for this weekends.

So these are the things that I need to have before raya. I really need it, if not my raya is ruin. Please papa, give me more budget for raya. I need another shot of shopping... Then I'm totallt down with everything...Arrrgggghhh, I lupe. Tomorrow, mama ajak gy Isetan shopping handbags, perfume and bju Ralph Lauren tp esk I ada berbuka dengan anak-anak yatim..... AArrrggghhh, sedih!!!

Sunday I kne study for exam.

STRESSSSS NYER NK RAYA NIE

Chapter 120

I love you

Is that mean anything to you??

No, because you don't trust me. I'm sorry because I'm not the perfect angel for you just from heaven. I'm just a normal being that needs to be love, and to be care. I'm sorry for hurting you so much, since the time you enter my whole life my friends are no one for me. You are everything but I want you to know that later I still need my time with my friends because on the time we had a fight they are the one who will lent their ears and shoulder for me to cry on. Especially at the moment where everything in your eyes is nothing when it comes to me. I'm so sorry!! You said that you love me, so do I but we are broken apart from the moment we need time to cool down. Nothing works. I didn't know whether you realise or not that I'm losing you and you're losing me too. Just the reason why we are still need each other is love. We have nothing else in common already right now.

You want me not to be friend with everyone so OK fine. I'll change my mobile number and I'll make sure that my family member are the only person who get through this new coming number for any emergencies. No one will get my number including you because if you need me, you still can contact my house number. I want to live like a girl with no mobile. If this will make you happier, I'm glad to see you happy.

From now on, anything just buzz me on ym, facebook, or any relevant ways. I'm tired of arguing with you till my last breath. I'm tired of those shouting, yelling, and accusation. I hope this ways will just work for us.

:)

Chapter 119

Obsessive and Clingy Spouse!

Getting into any relationship is hard enough. Relationship is not all about the good things but sometimes it turn upside down too. So having a phychotic partner is the beginning to arise, it can be nerve wrecking.

Constant calling When she/he feels the need to call you so many times that you begin to worry, it can be a sign of your partner being overly possessive. There is a big difference between calling to talk and calling to know where you are at all times. It will just turn worse when it involves your friends too. Relationship is about trust, trust your partner but still need your brain to think whether your partner is worth it to have your trust then.

Your partner choose or decide who your friends are Whether your friends are male or female, if she/he tries to cut you off from friendships, there are definite problems. Way big big big problem in your relationship. You should remember, everyone have the right to speak up for their own. This action just shows like you have no right to tell your partner who she/he can and cannot be friends with, never deal about this.

Cyber stalking Facebook and Myspace and Twitter and Blogs and Formspring and many other social networking. Most of the relationship at least will have a fight about this. This is already like a syndrome in every relationship. Remember not to give your personal password and everything will just make everything screwed up. It can lead to more unhealthy behavior.

Having the exact same interests all the time isn't always the best When your girlfriend seems to suddenly have an uncanny like for everything you mention, it's hard not to wonder if she’s telling you the truth. It is not good to have a chameleon girlfriend; it can lead to bigger lies. It is not that having same interest is not good, it is a bonus. Just a bonus, not something that you need. Sometimes your partner might have his/her regular cliques to hangout doing his/her interest together

Alligator arms If your girlfriend is unwilling to reach into her purse to pay half of a date, it can show that she’s selfish and will expect you to pick up the tab for everything. That’s psycho behavior at the height of its gluttony. It might not be a big problem when you have the *kaching kaching but when you're in a tight pocket, this is where both need to learn and understand about sharing the bills together. Sharing is caring to build more love.

Moving into your place This shows that she/he's trying to encroach on every aspect of your life, and that it absolutely unhealthy. Being 24/7 is just not good for couples. This is where the flame of volcano will explode without any signals when you already tired of being tied all the time. Everyone needs time for family, friends, studies and everything. Being in a relationship is not all about you and your partner only. If you’re not at that step up, but you’re slowly trying finding more and more of her/his stuff in your house, you need to cut ties.

Being treated like a child When he/she didn't respect you then it is not only time to discuss but it is the perfect time to walk away. You should be treated like adults because now is not the time for you to be taught but to be learn.

RESPECT EACH OTHER THEN YOU WILL BE HAPPY TOGETHER

Chapter 118

This is my favourite shop NOW!!!

I used to love Guess so much, now there's too much guess products being imitate. I have stop buying it!

Then I love GAB so much and Zara, I still will be GAB customer for shirts and cardigans. Zara will be one of my choice when there will be NO SALE. When it is on SALE , it is really fuck up with everything in a bundle. But until now, I still love Miss Sixty so damn much. I still can't see any reasons why I should stop buying Miss Sixty.

JASPAL really fits me. They have sizes like xxxs to xl. I really appreciate that. Just now I went to Pavillion for shopping and I borong at Jaspal. At the end, I came out from the shop with 3 paper bags full with mine.. hahahaha.

puas ati!!! I had a really great spa at Jaspal.

*Thanks to Jaspal for the cheap price with great materials and nice cuts. I JUST LOVE IT!!

Next thing to do is to buy handbags, shoes, perfumes and clutch.

Handbags - Nine West, Jane Holli and Baby Phat

Shoes - Charles and Keith, Nine West and Guess

Perfumes - Not decided yet!!

Clutch - Still looking!!!

MYRA MOKHTAR = SHOPPING

Lifehouse - Take Me Away

this time what I want is you
there is no one else
who can take your place
this time you burn me with your eyes
you see past all the lies
you take it all away
I've seen it all
and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you

take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away

I try to make my way to you
but still I feel so lost
I don't know what else I can do
I've seen it all
and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you

take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away

don't give up on me yet
don't forget who I am
I know I'm not there yet
but don't let
me stay here alone

this time what I want is you
there is no one else
who can take your place
I've seen enough and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you

take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away

take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away

This song can really make me cry. I listened to it millions of time and never get tired of it. I just hope YOU will take me away once again like how you did to me before. And please don't let me go again.

Chapter 117

Selamat Berpuasa!!!

and I nak mintak maaf dekat semua org yg kenal kt I and ada terasa or ada dendam atau sakit ati dengan I. I mintak maaf sesangat!!

MY FIRST DAY WEARING TUDUNG TO COLLEGE!!

I have to wake up earlier than usual so that I have enough time to wear my tudung. Today is the 1st Ramadhan. I'm a little bit weird when I enter the class with tudung. Xpela!!

Ramadhan once a year. Xtentu lagi dapat sambut the next Ramadhan so I hope I can collect as many pahala during this Ramadhan. Pahala bulan Ramadhan ni berkali kali ganda. Insyallah Ramadhan ni lebih baik dari sebelum sebelumnya dan Insyallah I akan lebih rajin berpuasa... No such thing nak ponteng and lapar lapar lagi...

-amin-

Chapter 116

I drove back to Johor Bahru today. In the first place, I thought of going back early in the morning since I've planned to visit Ngah, Uncle Bobby, Uncle Din, Aunty Lin, Sarah n ramai lgi la. But, as usual plans will always drag. I moved my ass out from my house at 11.45am and stopped at Pagoh to fill tank full at 1.15pm. I bought cendol and cempedak because my dad is cempedak lover. Continue our journey to JB and reach at 2.20pm at this creepy and dull looking Giant at Southern City. I DON'T REALLY MASTER JOHOR BAHRU ROUTE so whenever I saw a hypermarket Giant I just went there without question. Guess what Nana told me " Asal akak drive here, I xsuka la Giant ni". And I ask why. She said

"NI GIANT PAPE KEDANA"

I laugh and once I reach there, she's right. This is the most pape kedana hypermarket I have ever been. And pirate DVD are sells openly. Then we went to Ngah's house and lepak lepak lepak lepak. I am starving so on my way back to sent Nana to STF, we had our early dinner at 4.30pm in Lido. Perut kenyang I thought of sleeping but I have to drive back to KL. I rushed to STF since the clock ticks to 5.40pm already and her curfew at 6.oopm. Then I directly drove to KL and reach my lovely home at 8.35pm.

Terus jump atas katil n lepak laaaaaa. Then baru la online to write this tiring blog....... :)

TIRING DAY BUT I LOVE MY SISTER SO MUCH

If papa is changing his car again, makin terbang la I bawak kereta you nanti.. any summons kira halal la k papa. *winks*

Chapter 115

new me in 3weeks

*thought to dye my hair for raya

Chapter 114

I LOVE YOU SO DAMN FUCKING FREAKING MUCH!!

I'm sorry if before this I'm not the one who make you smile and i'm not the one that u keep thinking about. I'm just a simple girl who needs a simple relationship BUT that doesn't mean I don't meant it when I say I love you. Whenever I'm not jealous about those crappy things, it's not that I don't care BUT I want you to know that I trust you. Whenever I keep silence about your action means that I won't speak out afraid of argument with you BUT it doesn't mean I allow you to do anything. As long it is still in in limits I won't mind because I know we are still young and so many thing to go through. I just want us to be happy with each other.

I'm happy that we can smile and have fun together back nowadays. :)

Chapter 113

PICNIC

TOUR de PUTRAJAYA

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At 7.45pm me, afiq and aten when to Chakri Express in Alamanda Putrajaya for dinner. Since yesterday was 3rd August 2010. We had a special dinner together. Right after the dinner, we went to Putrajaya park near the lake for picnic. We had Dominos for our picnic.

We really enjoy every moment spend together. I love my MMU-ian friends and Muhammad Afiq!

Chapter 112

3rd August 2010

I just cut my hair!!!

hahhahaha

things happened coincidently, when me, Syaza, Sean, and Banie were jobless. So Syaza recommend me to cut my hair because since last week I wanted to cut it. So we went to hair salon, with first intention of cuttinf just my fringe. At last, its end up with whole head cuts. I just feel relieved with all the stress I had when I cut my hair. :)

Conclusion : I cut my hair shorter (much more shorter ) and straight fringe *winks*