Chapter 93

I'm the broken hearted girl!!

You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No...No
No broken-hearted girl
I’m no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No…No
No broken-hearted girl

Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be…Oooo
I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me…yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away With you
yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh

I don’t wanna be without my baby
I don’t wanna a broken heart
Don’t want to take a breath with out my baby
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way..No..No
I don’t want a broken heart
I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl..No..No..
No broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl No…no…
No broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl

This song tells everything about me right now

At least I know there someone out there understand what I feel and going through....

Chapter 92

Mid term break starts!!!

Went shopping with mama. That's the best thing and will always remain as the best activity for me.

SHOPPING IS MY SPA, THERAPY TO CALM ME

it's soothing!!

I love my mom so much because she is my best friend, my mom, my sister, my everything. We are not like other parents and their child, we share everything with no limitation line across us. We can read each other mind..hahha

That day I'm looking for nice purse and handbag. I need leather for both. Then I went to Marc Jacobs because there I can find lots of leather goods and to Tod's. But everything seems too makcik for me. So I went to Miss Sixty as my favourite brand but I only found this beautiful handbag but it is made of wool. So I have to reject it.

Then my mom went to Coach to buy her a clutch. I pun ikut la. Then I saw this beautiful purse which cost me only RM369. It is really small but it is very nice (poppy version)..OMG I am so up to trend in it!!

Then the sales guy show me the handbag and the purse with different cuts but same design.

AND I'M SPEECHLESS BECAUSE NO WORDS FOR IT!!!

I love all of it.. Mama agree to buy it for me.. I just smile smile and smile.. I am gonna wear Coach!!! ahahhahaha

Then I called papa for confirmation, and papa said wait for him. He'll buy it for me later.. Dengan muka yang frust I keluar kedai tu with nothing for me.

But I manage to get a Jimmy Choo shoe and Nine West slingbag and a Jane Norman purse.

I love them all!!!!

Now my therapy is done!!! I felt better and fresh!!!

Chapter 91

I have to wake up early. I meant really really early to sent Boy to his football match in Petaling Jaya. My parents sent Nana to Johor back while I have to sent Boy to his football match since I am so lazy to drive to Johor. So we changed our task but I have to wake up at 6am. Can you imagine??

Boy have 2 games and they won 1 game while the other 1 draw. Ilovemysiblingssodamnfuckingmuch!!!

I will always support you in whatever you do...kakak sayang Boy sgt2!!

No BF easier bcoz I don't have to do multi tasking task taking care and supportive to each of them. Boy said to me!!

Chapter 90

Mid term semester break started!!

Kebosanan yang melampau pun bermula.

TEAM : MMU Slayers

Manager : Aiman Hell

Drivers : Ahmad Fadali

: Ammzarul

: Myra Mokhtar

We are the drivers for Go-Kart competition. We really enjoy it!!!

Although we didn't managed to get the first prize, we enjoy

We really do have fun.

Chapter 89

Mya + Ezry + Benu + Micah + Zul + Faris + Mat + Zou + Poney + Iff

All of us planned to go for go-kart in Sepang. But, once we were there, the place was closed. It is only open on friday, saturday and sunday. We lost hope and played 'ice water'.

Most of children do play this game. Main kejar-kejar la!!

I really love that night because we can see so many stars on the sky. They seems beautiful. And Faris teman I tengok bintang.

Then we moved to Malice. Sedaaaaaaaaapp sgt dapat makan char kuey teow dia.

Best!!!

( udang banyak - kerang lagi )

Da puas mkn and kenyang, we moved to Andalus for shisha. We hangout all together until 3am. Although we were so frustrated because our main planned to play go-kart has to be cancelled but we still enjoy the moments with our friends..

They are really nice guys!!! Thanks guys for inviting me to play go-kart with all of you...ngeee

Chapter 88

88 is my lucky number and I really love the number "8".
But my chapter 88 is not a great chapter for me and my baby

But, what am I gonna write is not lucky at all. My dear beloved darling got summon because of me. Actually it is not really my fault. It is my mom's fault since she insisted me to parked my car at the road side because we couldn't find any parking at Jalan Duta area. I have told her that my dear baby will get summon and I don't want it to get her first summon. My mom tired to wait for parking so I have to parked at the road side too.

Once I got back to my car.. Teng teng teng!!!!!
Me and my baby got a present from Jabatan Polis Trafik Kuala Lumpur..
TERIMA KASIH PAK POLIS!!!

Mama should learn her lesson. I told mama rather than her paying the police Rm300 it is better for her to pay me discount Rm200 and let me stay in the car or just keep moving the car which couldn't charge me much. Mama just xkisah!!! Xpaham betulah la mak cik sorang tu..

So that is my first summon for my baby..
Sorry baby, I promise it could not happend again n again n again.. nanti kita marah mama ok??

Chapter 87

Rabani's Day!!!!

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY!!!!!

13th March 2010 was Banie's 19th birthday. But since everyone has things to be settle on that day we planned to celebrate it on 14th March 2010 at Curve. Banie was craving for Bubba Gum since so many people recommend to dine there. But the food was not like what we thought. It doesn't taste really good except for the shrimp. We still enjoy that night.

The plan supposed to be a dinner with the spice girl and Banie's MCKK old boys but Azhar (MCKK) is the only person who showed up that night during dinner. Rabani was quite frustrated but actually Syaza and I already planned with "Benu and the Gang" to join the dinner.

Happy birthday to you

Happy birthday to you

Happy birthday to Banie

Happy birthday to you!!!!!!!!

Benu, Zul, Syafiq, Faris, Micah and me was already at Bubba Gum waiting for Banie and the others to come. Once he saw every each of us, we sang Happy Birthday song. He's quite shocked to see Benu, Zul, Syafiq, Micah and Faris that night!! In his speech, he said that he's happy to be with his MMU friends who are there that night..

Million THANKS to Benu, Zul, Faris, Syafiq and Micah for making the plan goes well.

Really appreciate it!!!

-From Syaza and Myra-

Chapter 86

ITALIANESE

BIRTHDAY DINNER!!

14th March 2010 is Kamil's birthday. Since he came back to KL this weekend so I thought of celebrating his birthday on that 14th itself. But his family had a plan for his birthday celebration on the 14th so I celebrate his day on 13th March 2010 for dinner.

We went to Italianese at the Gardens. I invited my roommate Fatin to join but she insisted. Mengada2 xnak ikut!!

Then we went for dinner and he's quite surprised to know that I'm celebrating his birthday.

So sweeeeet la myra nie!!! hahahaha

Can you imagine, we start our dinner at 8pm and we came out from the restaurant by 10.40pm. Gila la lame!! Maybe da lama xlepak, so we talked a lot!!! At that night, I can see a few changes in him than him for the last 4years.

- He is taller, getting taller and taller ( taller than me, tp now berbeza sgt )

- He is bigger and bigger ( skinny and small )

- He talk more than before ( if dulu, I je kne cakap )

- He can make me laugh ( blur and serious je )

- I can feel he's changing to be a CROCO!!! ( dulu pemalu gila ngn prempuan )

other than this I xperasan

I thought of lepaking with him until 12am, so that I can sing happy birthday song live for him. But entah la cmne boleh terbalik awl. So once I reach my room, I called him and sang Happy Birthday song on the phone. As I remember I have never done this before to him. Kelakar jugak la and can you imagine dia nk record.. gila ke ape!! But at least, I penah celebrate birthday dia.

So Kamil, it's proven that I remember your birthday. My birthday ape lagi, u kena la buat as we planned that night!!! hehehehe

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY KAMIL!!

* Tu la sapa suruh balik KL, if not my friends and I leh celebrate kt Penang as I planned*

Chapter 85

He is CRUEL

He is FAKE

Thats the type of people I hate!!

We are known "ILY" stands for I LOVE YOU.

But this time, I'm saying this "ILY" to him too but with special meaning for you..

I'M LEAVING YOU!!!

Thank goodness now I just realized that it is not worth it to cry on someone that doesn't worth a single thing. Why should I cry about him while he's enjoying his life meanwhile I'm letting my world upside down because of him

Thanks to you for throwing me away from your life because if you didn't do so, I will never realized how better my life without you. Thanks to her for taking him away from me because if not I'll only get him as the better one while I can have the best.

Now

you're not the one that shine my days and nights

you're not the one who bloom the flowers in my heart all the time

you're not the one who make my life full with sunshines and rainbows

Well, my sadness moment has come to the end.. I'M OVER IT!!

Chapter 84

Tonight gonna be the night for my group to perform.. After this all the burden will be washed away!!!

YEAY!!!!

can't really wait to feel relieve

My group member is me, syaza, shaz, banie, ishwin, ruben, ss, shumithra. 8 of us will perform a drama called " Check-In ". Just wait and see the result. We work really hard for this drama and practice everynight so that we could get the best output from each of us tonight.

WISH US LUCK!!! HOPE THE LUCK IS ON OUR SIDE.. *winks*

Chapter 83

Last night, I'm so frustrated with him. He promised me lots of thing. I knew that sometimes promises are just norm words while some take it and fulfill it. He promised that nothing gonna changed between us when he involved in what he's doing now, but in fact.. it does ruin us and my trust.

I admit it was my fault too for being afraid to be attached with him while he is so determine to repair our last ruined relationship we had. I'm too afraid of commitment since I always be hurt.

But never mind, I've learned another lesson in life which I can't learn somewhere else neither in classes or courses.

Life is a street learning!!!

Which there's no paper to justify your credibility because it is subtract

CHAPTER 82

I'm just too busy lately with all the assignment and coming midterm exam. So you can imagine how miserable my life is right now. If before this my life was so busy with all crappy and hanging around thingy, lately I'm busy with college work which makes my life burden more but at the same time it's worth it. I'm just so damn freaking busy with English Drama. By the way, thanks yeah to Shaz for choosing me as the group leader to this "Check-In' Drama" ( *sarcastic ). Now, all the FOE and FIT students last trimester are so busy with drama.

I want to thanks to all of my group members which makes the practice and everything flow easily for this drama.

Your commitment towards this drama are appreciated!! We work really hard to make this drama go well.

So just wait for on this Wednesday for our group to stage it.

GOOD LUCK TO THE OTHER GROUP TOO!!

Chapter 81

Sign that you are in love!!

• I can be myself when I am with you.

• You make me feel like, like I have never felt before.

• I can tell you anything, we share and NO SECRETS!!.

• Your undying faith is what keeps the flame out of love alive.
  
• You and me together, we can make magic..EVERYTHING POSSIBLE WHEN WE ARE TOGETHER.

• We're a perfect match.
  
• Thinking of you, fills me with a wonderful feeling.

• We can feel the love and it is the best feeling.
  
• You never give up on me, and that's what keeps me going.
  
• You are simply irresistible.
  
• I love you because you bring the best out of me.

• Every time I look at you, my heart misses a beat.. You make my heart keep beating!!!
  
• You're the one who holds the key to my heart.

• You have taught me the meaning of true LOVE.

• To me, love means you - and you mean everything.
  
• You are my theme for a dream.. i wish you're in dream all time.
  
• I have had the time of my life and I owe it all to you.
  
• When I look into your eyes, I can see your heart.
  
• Your love for me is a natural anti-depressant.

• You are my private doctor, the best medicine when I am sick is you.

• Love to hear your voice.
  
• Your love has helped me to rediscover myself.
  
• Your love is an effective anti-dote to despair.
  
• I love to wake up with you by my side...It makes my days better.
  
• You always make me feel that you are by my side no matter what.

• I love that feeling of being secure when you wrap your arms around me.
  
• I love the way you keep your cool when I do something stupid.
  
• Just being with you feels like I can defy the whole world.
  
• You mean the world to me.

• I love the way you patch up with me after a tumultuous fight.
  
• And, of-course, your intelligence, 'cause you were smart enough to fall in love with me ;)

Thats all are the sign that you are deeply in love with someone. Hearts never lies, no matter how much you try to lie.

Chapter 80

To be in a good and long lasting relationship, the key is "Matured".

Whatever we do, we have to think twice or trice or even more before making any decisions. Relationships come in many shapes and sizes, but all of them require maturity to create a lasting emotional bond. Starting a relationship is the easy part, but making it last requires patience and understanding. Learning to overlook mistakes and to look forward into the future are the key elements of a mature relationship.

1. 1. Define your relationship and be clear about your intentions. Mostly, how you act in the early stages of a relationship will certainly be different than your actions a year or two later. Although your feeling towards your partner has change to more or less love, do not jump to conclusion.

   
   

   2. Give your partner room to breathe. Of course not spending time with each other at all means you are giving him much space. A relationship cannot grow if you never spend any time together but the relationship will get stronger when we learn to stay apart. Part of being in a mature relationship is trust. If you cannot trust someone, you cannot have a healthy, mature relationship. Trust is very important thus it teach us not to take advantage over the trust given by your partner which lead you to a loyal type of person.

   
   

   3. Forgive and forget. Everyone make mistake just the different is how you handle the pass. Past should make us think more and be an adult. In a relationship nothing ruins relationships faster than holding onto the past. If you have chosen to forgive your partner for something and continue your relationship, than you must put it in the past. Yes of course there are some pass that can't be forgiven especially if its related to the other parties. Accepting who your partner is will always needed every time you are together.

   4. Focus on good qualities instead of bad ones. Everyone has their good and the bad sides, we have to learn how to handle the bad side because normally the bad side will only be an argument. Only the bad side that will be talk about without thinking the other gazillion good side of the partner. Your partner may forget to call if he's going to be late or leave his socks on the floor, but the roses he brings home or the lawn that he meticulously takes care of is a much better focal point. You have to learn and think thousand of time about your relationship at the pass when all the hard time been through together and all the sweet promises being said by yourself is it honestly from your heart that time? Then why all in a sudden, just for the little bad thing every single thing you are willing to ignore

   
   

   ~ Everyone should learn and understand why are we in a relationship. Whether are we really need this relationship or not before hurting or destroying someones hearts and life. Sometime, sacrifice that being made by your partner is huge and nothing can compare but just for the sake of your maturity, it remains silents