Chapter 86

ITALIANESE

BIRTHDAY DINNER!!

14th March 2010 is Kamil's birthday. Since he came back to KL this weekend so I thought of celebrating his birthday on that 14th itself. But his family had a plan for his birthday celebration on the 14th so I celebrate his day on 13th March 2010 for dinner.

We went to Italianese at the Gardens. I invited my roommate Fatin to join but she insisted. Mengada2 xnak ikut!!

Then we went for dinner and he's quite surprised to know that I'm celebrating his birthday.

So sweeeeet la myra nie!!! hahahaha

Can you imagine, we start our dinner at 8pm and we came out from the restaurant by 10.40pm. Gila la lame!! Maybe da lama xlepak, so we talked a lot!!! At that night, I can see a few changes in him than him for the last 4years.

- He is taller, getting taller and taller ( taller than me, tp now berbeza sgt )

- He is bigger and bigger ( skinny and small )

- He talk more than before ( if dulu, I je kne cakap )

- He can make me laugh ( blur and serious je )

- I can feel he's changing to be a CROCO!!! ( dulu pemalu gila ngn prempuan )

other than this I xperasan

I thought of lepaking with him until 12am, so that I can sing happy birthday song live for him. But entah la cmne boleh terbalik awl. So once I reach my room, I called him and sang Happy Birthday song on the phone. As I remember I have never done this before to him. Kelakar jugak la and can you imagine dia nk record.. gila ke ape!! But at least, I penah celebrate birthday dia.

So Kamil, it's proven that I remember your birthday. My birthday ape lagi, u kena la buat as we planned that night!!! hehehehe

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY KAMIL!!

* Tu la sapa suruh balik KL, if not my friends and I leh celebrate kt Penang as I planned*

Chapter 85

He is CRUEL

He is FAKE

Thats the type of people I hate!!

We are known "ILY" stands for I LOVE YOU.

But this time, I'm saying this "ILY" to him too but with special meaning for you..

I'M LEAVING YOU!!!

Thank goodness now I just realized that it is not worth it to cry on someone that doesn't worth a single thing. Why should I cry about him while he's enjoying his life meanwhile I'm letting my world upside down because of him

Thanks to you for throwing me away from your life because if you didn't do so, I will never realized how better my life without you. Thanks to her for taking him away from me because if not I'll only get him as the better one while I can have the best.

Now

you're not the one that shine my days and nights

you're not the one who bloom the flowers in my heart all the time

you're not the one who make my life full with sunshines and rainbows

Well, my sadness moment has come to the end.. I'M OVER IT!!

Chapter 84

Tonight gonna be the night for my group to perform.. After this all the burden will be washed away!!!

YEAY!!!!

can't really wait to feel relieve

My group member is me, syaza, shaz, banie, ishwin, ruben, ss, shumithra. 8 of us will perform a drama called " Check-In ". Just wait and see the result. We work really hard for this drama and practice everynight so that we could get the best output from each of us tonight.

WISH US LUCK!!! HOPE THE LUCK IS ON OUR SIDE.. *winks*

Chapter 83

Last night, I'm so frustrated with him. He promised me lots of thing. I knew that sometimes promises are just norm words while some take it and fulfill it. He promised that nothing gonna changed between us when he involved in what he's doing now, but in fact.. it does ruin us and my trust.

I admit it was my fault too for being afraid to be attached with him while he is so determine to repair our last ruined relationship we had. I'm too afraid of commitment since I always be hurt.

But never mind, I've learned another lesson in life which I can't learn somewhere else neither in classes or courses.

Life is a street learning!!!

Which there's no paper to justify your credibility because it is subtract

CHAPTER 82

I'm just too busy lately with all the assignment and coming midterm exam. So you can imagine how miserable my life is right now. If before this my life was so busy with all crappy and hanging around thingy, lately I'm busy with college work which makes my life burden more but at the same time it's worth it. I'm just so damn freaking busy with English Drama. By the way, thanks yeah to Shaz for choosing me as the group leader to this "Check-In' Drama" ( *sarcastic ). Now, all the FOE and FIT students last trimester are so busy with drama.

I want to thanks to all of my group members which makes the practice and everything flow easily for this drama.

Your commitment towards this drama are appreciated!! We work really hard to make this drama go well.

So just wait for on this Wednesday for our group to stage it.

GOOD LUCK TO THE OTHER GROUP TOO!!

Chapter 81

Sign that you are in love!!

• I can be myself when I am with you.

• You make me feel like, like I have never felt before.

• I can tell you anything, we share and NO SECRETS!!.

• Your undying faith is what keeps the flame out of love alive.
  
• You and me together, we can make magic..EVERYTHING POSSIBLE WHEN WE ARE TOGETHER.

• We're a perfect match.
  
• Thinking of you, fills me with a wonderful feeling.

• We can feel the love and it is the best feeling.
  
• You never give up on me, and that's what keeps me going.
  
• You are simply irresistible.
  
• I love you because you bring the best out of me.

• Every time I look at you, my heart misses a beat.. You make my heart keep beating!!!
  
• You're the one who holds the key to my heart.

• You have taught me the meaning of true LOVE.

• To me, love means you - and you mean everything.
  
• You are my theme for a dream.. i wish you're in dream all time.
  
• I have had the time of my life and I owe it all to you.
  
• When I look into your eyes, I can see your heart.
  
• Your love for me is a natural anti-depressant.

• You are my private doctor, the best medicine when I am sick is you.

• Love to hear your voice.
  
• Your love has helped me to rediscover myself.
  
• Your love is an effective anti-dote to despair.
  
• I love to wake up with you by my side...It makes my days better.
  
• You always make me feel that you are by my side no matter what.

• I love that feeling of being secure when you wrap your arms around me.
  
• I love the way you keep your cool when I do something stupid.
  
• Just being with you feels like I can defy the whole world.
  
• You mean the world to me.

• I love the way you patch up with me after a tumultuous fight.
  
• And, of-course, your intelligence, 'cause you were smart enough to fall in love with me ;)

Thats all are the sign that you are deeply in love with someone. Hearts never lies, no matter how much you try to lie.

Chapter 80

To be in a good and long lasting relationship, the key is "Matured".

Whatever we do, we have to think twice or trice or even more before making any decisions. Relationships come in many shapes and sizes, but all of them require maturity to create a lasting emotional bond. Starting a relationship is the easy part, but making it last requires patience and understanding. Learning to overlook mistakes and to look forward into the future are the key elements of a mature relationship.

1. 1. Define your relationship and be clear about your intentions. Mostly, how you act in the early stages of a relationship will certainly be different than your actions a year or two later. Although your feeling towards your partner has change to more or less love, do not jump to conclusion.

   
   

   2. Give your partner room to breathe. Of course not spending time with each other at all means you are giving him much space. A relationship cannot grow if you never spend any time together but the relationship will get stronger when we learn to stay apart. Part of being in a mature relationship is trust. If you cannot trust someone, you cannot have a healthy, mature relationship. Trust is very important thus it teach us not to take advantage over the trust given by your partner which lead you to a loyal type of person.

   
   

   3. Forgive and forget. Everyone make mistake just the different is how you handle the pass. Past should make us think more and be an adult. In a relationship nothing ruins relationships faster than holding onto the past. If you have chosen to forgive your partner for something and continue your relationship, than you must put it in the past. Yes of course there are some pass that can't be forgiven especially if its related to the other parties. Accepting who your partner is will always needed every time you are together.

   4. Focus on good qualities instead of bad ones. Everyone has their good and the bad sides, we have to learn how to handle the bad side because normally the bad side will only be an argument. Only the bad side that will be talk about without thinking the other gazillion good side of the partner. Your partner may forget to call if he's going to be late or leave his socks on the floor, but the roses he brings home or the lawn that he meticulously takes care of is a much better focal point. You have to learn and think thousand of time about your relationship at the pass when all the hard time been through together and all the sweet promises being said by yourself is it honestly from your heart that time? Then why all in a sudden, just for the little bad thing every single thing you are willing to ignore

   
   

   ~ Everyone should learn and understand why are we in a relationship. Whether are we really need this relationship or not before hurting or destroying someones hearts and life. Sometime, sacrifice that being made by your partner is huge and nothing can compare but just for the sake of your maturity, it remains silents