Missing DIM SUM

Today my mom took Adlyana for Dim Sum in Johor Bharu since she's sending Nana to her school back. They had Dim Sum at Pan Pac JB. I miss dim sum, craving for them since last week. But I just don't have time to have them. I woke up early today as I can't sleep very well. I miss someone that is totally important in my life. I love him so much as no other one I can see besides him. I LOVE YOU!!

Hope I can have my dim sum this week. HOPEFULLY!!! Amin....

So today, I bake tiramisu cheesecake which turn to be quite good. It is my new recipe but I guess the cheesy taste is too strong. Tomorrow planning to try another new recipe that I found. Basically tiramisu again!!

He loves tiramisu so when I bake it I can feel close to him. As I still remember and knows about him although I'm not. Baking is the only thing that makes me busy. When I bake, he's the one who will taste and be my judge. He will give his comment and I will try to improve better. But for now, everything seems good for his tongue. Tomorrow I'll practice to do another tiramisu recipe so that when we are good together again, he'll get his first tiramisu from me. I bet that he'll get he best tiramisu in his life. :)

love you muhammad afiq hairollah!

Chapter 149

When I can't describe what I feel and I can't find the right word to say it, I prefer to write in by my own heart languange. That's how I call it. I describe everything and write everything straight from my heart.


Love me, my LOVE!

love me, love, come to me
leak of love, drown with it
thee one of me is yours
the other half is mine

such is mu love, to it i breath
love like sunshine after rain
gives me a better sunny day
i smile and you know, love
rain in me, love you cried

why i rain? afraid of thunders
shall strike and lose, lose
why i love? not about hereafter
makes earth blooms better, love

why chase for love?
asthought there is no tomorrow
time, time is delaying us
rushing not to get stranded

my heart will ever be your service
claims to be love
claims to be better
as my love never fades

-muhammad afiq muhammad hairollah -

i love you with all my heart, everytime you are around i feel like shooting stars

Chapter 148

Today is Friday April 8th , 8.14am

Here I'm admitting that I will let him go one day. And that one day won't be that long, I can feel it! I need to force myself of letting him go. I know that he don't feel the same like the way I feel for him. We can't force people to love us right. People change for some reasons too right. Same goes to us. At first I thought it is just another challenge that we need to go through but then I realise it is a challenge for me not for him. As I'm with him, he has to try to love me while he can't. While it's a challenge for me to understand him and myself so that I can learn to let him go.

I promise that I will let you go one day!

Just please let me have my time to see your smile cz I miss it so much

Samsons-Kenangan Terindah

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Chapter 147

I feel LOST!!

Nothing else can describe my feeling now. I know I'm losing him and I know he's holding back. Nothing else I need now then having him back in my arm. I know it's impossible. I always dreamt so much until I forgot what real life is. My fantasy of Disney Princesses should end immediatly NOW!! My love for him is never be a dream. I love him so much, everything feels like shooting stars for me. I mean it that I love you so much. Nothing else I need in my life now other than you.

Kenangan Terindah with him was the most miracle thing have ever happend to me before. Here, I would like to say sorry to all of my ex-boyfriend before him that I'm admitting he's the BEST guy have ever enter my life before. No matter how adorable, patient, lovable you are. You would never imagine how better he is than you guys. Another thing is " No matter if you already have RM for duit hantaran as I always said before with a Copper ".. my advice to you is " Go and find someoene else because my heart own by someone else already and it is totally not YOU!!".

Lately, when I hangout with my friends they always wondering who gonna be married first and I will always say " I dah jumpa, tnggu la habis belajar then sampai la kad kahwin ". They was totally shock until my facebook ada yang cakap "myra da baik la now, da tau pikir nk kahwin". I know it's too soon for me to talk about this. Tapi bak kata orang tua-tua " perempuan bukan makin muda so if da jumpa jaga la elok2 "... but for me, I found him already but I xtau nk jaga until I lose his grab I jadi macam ni. My heart always says he's the one for me but I'm still useless until at this moment that I lose him. Now I know that no other person much better suits me. I know it's too late for me to turn back. I'm announcing here, that I will never be the old myra ( means school time ), or even the better myra but will be the Best myra in me starting from this second. I've made a lot of mistakes before and now I know how stupid I am at the age of 20. Things that I need to change in me so that the BEST myra will be.

- Be more loyal girl, always loyal
- No more naughty me ( flirting is not sexy but stupid )
- Know how to take care of other feeling ( not just to think about myself )
- No more drama ( drama queen is so last year myraaa )
- No more tears ( your tears is really annoying )
- No more tak cukup kain baju ( good girl must start with attire )
- Attitude more towards girl ( be more sensitive with surrounding )
- Adding more girl friends ( too much guy friends )
- Alert with malaysian culture ( not to take things for granted )
- Be a good student ( to be a good mother for my children )
- Set a good example for my family ( the best role model )
- Be MODERATE ( moderate is the best key )
- Slowly be a good Muslim ( be a good muslim on earth and life after )
- Cooking ( learn to cook variety of food )

I hope I can change myself slowly as I promise to myself and make my parent proud of me. Insyallah, tahun depan ajak papa n mama pegi umrah. And this time I da xnak nangis just not ready to for for umrah. I feel sorry for myself because I always did mistakes in my life and whenever it's too late to change I decided to change. I always complain that my life is hard but actually I'm the one whose making it hard. If I would not get him back, then I have to realise this is my biggest mistake that will haunt me all of my life. I need to change myself so that I won't cry like now after this. So that I'll be the perfect girl.

-amin-

Chapter 146

I NEED MONEYYYYYY!!!!!

I need around RM600 to RM700 for concert on April.

- Maroon 5 concert

* I really need the ticket. I really need to go to the concert or I'll die. If I can I would like to buy ticket which let me sit on the stage with Adam ( he's freaking sexy ), but Amal, Fatin, Zou ( kiv ) are going for the RM288. I don't really care which area I'm seating as long I'm going to see Adam perform live!!!

I just love you so much dude.

- Justin Bieber concert

* I'm taking my 6 years old little sister to the concert because she's totally into Justin Bieber. She can memorize every single songs on Bieber's album. My little brother asking me to bring him to the concert too since he'll be left alone if I'm taking Adlyana to the concert. My maid even love Beiber so much, she even told me that she wants to go to the concert. But, whose confirm going is Shaz, Syaza, Fatin, Me and Adlyana. 5 of us are going to be Beiberlicious!!!! I need to save another RM 200 for the ticket by this weekend.

- Bruno Mars concert

* Haven't finalized my decision whether I'm going or not. This concert is on my KIV list if I got the money to go then I'll be there. The ticket price haven't released yet too and we'll see how it goes.

Conclusion, April will be a tight month for me. Papa surely gonna give me a looooong speech on it but because I'm asking for 3 concert in a month, almost on every weekends. But, I know papa will let me go because he's my dad!!!! hikhik. :)

Chapter 145

Last semester result was out already. Ok, not bad. Just this coming trimester I'm aiming for 3.5 and above.

Wish me luck!!!

and

I need another luck because my class starts at 8am EVERYDAY..... later I'll be a morning person which reaaaaalllyy morning person *winks

Btw, I'm having Islamic studies this semester. Hope for the best and be a better muslim :)